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Silver line in the cloud, there surely is no hurry, but would you mind showing up?!


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Exams

Even though I planned to make this a reminder of all the things I ought to be grateful for, there are moments when everything seems to be falling apart, and I don’t know where to turn to and find the good in my life.
I usually turn to health, I went through tricky times in the past, but nothing too worrying, or painful, or sudden.
Well, I was deaf for some time, and had to undergo some surgery, and not too pleasant tests, but I never really worried too much, or for too long.

But this time it was different. I’ve been worrying and being tested for months, not all the time of course, but it’s been a long, exhausting process. And every time you’re told that maybe some more tests are needed, the dark clouds grow darker, and the silver lining seems to disappear. And you can’t even say well, at least I still have health. Because, you know, maybe you don’t.

And then comes the day you go for another exam, and the person before you leaves the examination room in tears, and it looks like a bad sign.
And then your test is good, perfect, nothing is wrong. Of course you need to be careful and have regular check ups, but you’re fine.
And the dark clouds start to fade, and you can see the light again. The sun.


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Online

Sometimes we get so used to things that we start taking them for granted, until they’re gone. Yes, like nonstop electricity or water, exactly.

Sometimes it’s not something as necessary as water, not even quite necessary as clothing, or somewhat necessary like a car.

Sometimes I realise I am not grateful enough for the opportunities that the Internet offers.

I wouldn’t be writing this blog.
Not that it’s a life-saving kind of blog, but it’s a useful reminder that I always have something to be grateful for.

I wouldn’t be constantly in touch with friends and family that are thousands of miles away, most of the times.
Sure, we might do with a break, but we would be missing so much on each other’s life that we would either become estranged or talk for days on end at the first opportunity.
And those who know me know that I can, literally.

And I wouldn’t have the possibility to learn so many new things every day. No, I’m not talking about Wikipedia. Well, not only.
I have been attending Coursera courses for some time now, and I keep being amazed at how lucky I am to have a chance to study, with people from all over the world, courses taught on the other side of the ocean, for free, from my desk.
How terrific is that.


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things to be grateful for – night shift

No, I’m not grateful for night shifts, even though I must admit they did pay pretty well, at the call centre I worked in back in the days.

I lost count of the “things to be grateful for” drafts so far, but tonight I will just publish, whatever road this post decides to take me.

It was an amazing night. With amazing people.

I have been reading and studying and analysing people’s reactions to war and violence for years now, and I never cease to be in awe at the strength and resilience they show.
The humanity that never dies.
The life that screams through them.
The hope that refuses to fade.

And still, when I meet people who have been through all the violence and danger and war and risks, when I hear their stories, their will to go on despite all the evil they faced, despite the pain, the fear, the death around them, I am amazed.

A night out with my young brave Kurdish friend is an experience that left me lost for words.
The struggles she went through, as a Kurd in Syria, as a woman in a war torn Country, as someone living in a besieged city, as a stranger in a Country that is not hers, where she had to face hardship and sneering, and yet she never gave up.

Listening to her story, how she made her escape, the times she feared for her – and her loved ones’ – life, the new version of her she built here, I could not help feeling small, and humbled. Wishing to be more like her, and knowing I will never be.
And grateful for this friendship, that came unexpected, and is one of the greatest gifts this year had in store for me.


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things to be grateful for – day five (and no typos)

No intended ones, anyway.

Funny things you see in this city: cactus listening to lovely music.
Grateful for a heartfelt laugh, last night 🙂

listening to lovely music


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things to be grateful four – day for

Well no, it’s not a typo, I just couldn’t help being silly with the title.
I can’t help being silly most of the time, to be honest.


 

I have been living here for a year now, studying hard(ish), volunteering here and there, making friends, taking pictures, getting to know a Country and the zillion of cultures mixed and living together. I never imagined such huge differences could exist in a tiny, tiny Country.

I am grateful for this year, it was a big leap into the void, at times I have thought it was a huge mistake, and maybe it was. Couldn’t make a better one, though.

The downside of this amazing experience is, needless to say, that I have spent all my money and I am nearly completely broke. It was an investment, and I hope it will bear some fruit. Still, I am broke.

I woke up this morning, checked my messages, and there it was! My former boss saying somebody is waiting for my CV. It’s in another Country, but a very nice one. And hey, did I mention I’ve been here for a year already?!

I am not sure where this will lead, and I know I wanted to write about the things I am grateful for in general, but today I can’t help feeling grateful for the opportunity.

I dare even say I am happy.